Okay, fine. So I don’t think I like him that much anymore. I guess the chase was what was fun. And after he told me about liking someone else I had somehow hardened my heart against those feelings I thought I had for him.
Now that he wants me too, I don’t want him. Now that someone is finally paying me all the attention I used to want from the boyfriend, I realize that attention is not something I really need. I’ve been fine without it.. or with very little of it.
Besides, I love my boyfriend. Why else would we have spent three years being together? Or close to three years anyway. He’s never done me any wrong and I should learn to appreciate my relationship with him. I guess it’s just because it was rather boring and mundane that I “fell” for someone else. But after I’ve got the classmate, I don’t feel that much attracted to him any longer.
Another thing is that there is absolutely no future between me and the classmate. He’s Muslim, I’m Christian. It’s highly unlikely that either of us will be willing to give up our religions.
Other than that, I find it rather infuriating when the classmate is unable to speak in proper English. English is my native tongue, I should say. I grew up speaking it and I barely know how to speak any of my two mother tongues which means that it means a lot to be able to communicate clearly using English.
Because, what’s the point when two people aren’t able to talk to one another? I love to have discussions about things… debate about certain things… be able to joke around and have him understand. The other night we were watching Wallace and Gromit in the Curse of the Were-Rabbit and I was laughing so hard. I found it disconcerting that he wasn’t laughing as hard as I was.
It was my first time watching that movie, by the way. I’ve always wanted to watch it but I just didn’t. Anyway, the movie itself was incredibly funny and the fact that he didn’t “get” much of the jokes that were in the movie just shows how lacking he might be in “getting” anything else I would like to talk about.
Sigh. But I would still like to remain friends. Even close friends. I don’t mind! I just don’t know how to put him down without hurting his feelings.
How do I do that???
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