cracked mirror May 1, 2010

I’m sorry that all you’re left with is this damaged girl. She’s too scared to love you right. And it’s too bad. For him. For her. I can tell you that she misses the reckless abandonment, the feeling of loving someone so wholly. But she doesn’t want to get hurt. You should’ve hit her that [...]

I Miss My Right Hand November 27, 2009

My secret love. I want so much right now to shout out loud, to express it, to tell someone how I feel. I miss him. I might love him. But for now let’s just say that I miss him. Bad. So bad. I want to write everything inside of me. But it’s hard. There’s too [...]

Scandalous January 4, 2009

(I’m going to finally give names to all the characters in my life which I write about.) xx I am a bad, bad, bad person. Sigh. You know, I used to think that I was the most loyal girlfriend. That no matter what, I would stick by my man and that I would never do [...]

Weakling November 30, 2008

The Boyfriend came over this afternoon. We fell asleep together with him holding me in his arms. When I woke up and turned around to face him, I asked him if he loved me. For the longest time now I’ve been feeling less love for him than I had before. When he kisses me now, [...]

The Worst Goodbye November 28, 2008

I feel incredibly sad. The Classmate is currently in his plane, flying over the sea, back to his home. We didn’t even get to say goodbye properly because of everyone that was around. All we managed to do was glance at each other and go, “Well, bye..” and “Yeah, see you..” and he was off [...]

We Loved November 28, 2008

Over the past 2 months, since my last post, I have decided to screw thinking and do what I want. So I let him get close to me. I let myself be close to him. Him being The Classmate. I couldn’t help myself and I couldn’t stay away. When I try so hard to stay [...]

I Missed The Classmate Even When The Boyfriend Was Around September 10, 2008

I miss the Classmate more than I miss the Boyfriend. I feel like crying. What I said in this post turned out to be so untrue. That I didn’t like him? I still do. And I want to be able to be close to him. What is he to me??? What? I don’t know either. [...]

And The Worst Girlfriend In The World Award Goes To… August 23, 2008

… me. I cried for awhile as I was driving myself home alone at 3 in the morning. How is it that I have such luck that the people I fall for end up having had fallen for me as well. Why is my love always returned? I had already decided that I wanted to [...]

Answer Me August 22, 2008

I’m slowly learning to get over it. Who knows.. Maybe he’d make a great friend instead. Right?

Hampa August 22, 2008

He likes someone else… . . . . I ought to be happy to have a reason to stop liking him, right..? Maybe the feeling will come later.