black, black heart June 11, 2010

I miss everyone. I love everyone. I want everyone. How can you love everyone? You can’t. You shouldn’t. You’re spreading yourself way too thin. This intricate web of lies you’ve spun. It’s gotten so complex. You never meant for things to get this far. You believe in karma. All this will come back to you, [...]

Scandalous January 4, 2009

(I’m going to finally give names to all the characters in my life which I write about.) xx I am a bad, bad, bad person. Sigh. You know, I used to think that I was the most loyal girlfriend. That no matter what, I would stick by my man and that I would never do [...]

We Loved November 28, 2008

Over the past 2 months, since my last post, I have decided to screw thinking and do what I want. So I let him get close to me. I let myself be close to him. Him being The Classmate. I couldn’t help myself and I couldn’t stay away. When I try so hard to stay [...]

She Slept For Only Two Hours September 11, 2008

Because Marie made a really bad decision.

I Missed The Classmate Even When The Boyfriend Was Around September 10, 2008

I miss the Classmate more than I miss the Boyfriend. I feel like crying. What I said in this post turned out to be so untrue. That I didn’t like him? I still do. And I want to be able to be close to him. What is he to me??? What? I don’t know either. [...]

I Am Getting Frustrated August 24, 2008

Okay, fine. So I don’t think I like him that much anymore. I guess the chase was what was fun. And after he told me about liking someone else I had somehow hardened my heart against those feelings I thought I had for him. Now that he wants me too, I don’t want him. Now [...]

And The Worst Girlfriend In The World Award Goes To… August 23, 2008

… me. I cried for awhile as I was driving myself home alone at 3 in the morning. How is it that I have such luck that the people I fall for end up having had fallen for me as well. Why is my love always returned? I had already decided that I wanted to [...]

Someone Not You August 21, 2008

He makes me smile… He makes me giggle… laugh… I float when he enters my mind… I smile when I am alone. xx This is bad. The person I was writing about is not the boyfriend. Of course I feel guilty. I am not heartless. I don’t know how it happened… how I fell for [...]

Bad At Being Bad April 30, 2008

Feeling like such a boob. I have misplaced the key. Sigh. I told the boyfriend about what I did because I needed to get it off my shoulders. At least someone I know out there knows what I did. I texted him about it during my lecture this morning. Me: I did something terrible yesterday. [...]

Shoplifter April 29, 2008

I did something horrible today. I shoplifted. But it was for something really essential and I don’t know how else to get one. Well, I thought about doing this years and years ago but I just couldn’t. Not because I didn’t have the guts but because I couldn’t find what I wanted. Or needed. It’s [...]